unhappy

tht day is the first day of the week i went school...its the first day i went school after the term holiday...its Tuesday...the first period is kh...as usual...i went in class a little late...cuz i need to get the keys...i,sandy,ann n sing yee...sit in a table together in the bengkel...when i reach there...i saw something different...i saw two same pencil case...its nice...i thought tht sandy bought one for me...cuz we r seem to b the best frenz in the class...i'm quite happy tht she rmb me when she buy things...but at tht momment...my heart broke...when she n ann came...ann took the pencil case n started to transfer her things into the new pencil case...from tht momment...i knw tht all the things tht i thought is all fake...we only SEEMS to b so good...but actually...she will only think abt ANN whenever she is thinking to buy or wadeva for a fren...juz tht i'm the only one tht is the stupid one tht will think abt her whenever i think of a fren in the school...in the class...Karmen came to our table n ask me...'nice ya?!i choose de ar...the jy ar...choose so long oso cannot choose...'don she feel tht i will b sad to see them using the same thing tht sandy buy...but not us?!mayb she won b feeling anything cuzis she choose de...i told sandy abt dis in a frenly n happy way...but i don feel like tht in real...she say...'tht time oni left two...so i cannot buy for u...' is tht a good reason??will u accept it if u m i??if u rly wanted to buy for me too...den u'll always find untill u get three same one...it is obviously tht u r din do it in real heart...i'm rly rly sad u knw??from now on...i have to see u two using the same thing everyday...can u think abt my feeling??i'm not angry or wad...i'm juz sad...i juz wan u to b good wif me...n don quarrel wif me...thts enough...cuz i cannot wish for more than tht from u...